Author: Jaz, © February 21,
2003
Rating: PG
Warning: Sappiness abounds!
Disclaimer: Tour of Duty and the characters herein are
the property of Zev Braun Productions. No copyright infringement is intended, and no
money is being made from this story.
Summary: This story is written in response to the
Birthday Challenge. Happy
belated birthday, Ceebee—as always, this one’s for
you.
The Birthday Blues
Sergeant
Anderson heard the noise of the approaching helicopter over the persistent din
of the gunfire surrounding him. He threw
a quick backward glance over his shoulder, encouraged by the sight of the lone
Huey in the distance as it made its way to the LZ behind him. He returned his gaze to his line of fire,
holding back before shooting at the unseen enemy as he called out to Goldman on
his left.
“LT! Chopper comin’ in!” he yelled, pulling out
the magazine from his M-16 and flipping it to reload, his eyes never leaving
the muzzle flashes sprayed out in the bushes ahead of him. The thick foliage provided excellent cover
for the VC hidden within, and Zeke was well used to allowing the sudden bursts
of light to guide his shots.
“Outstanding,”
Goldman responded dryly, as he picked his own targets. The relief he felt at the thought that they
would soon be out of this unexpected onslaught of enemy fire was barely
noticeable in his tone. “Let’s get the
men ready to fall back!”
Zeke shifted his
position slightly, pulling himself closer to the tree he was using for cover as
his men began their retreat. The next
few minutes went like clockwork, as each man reacted instinctively to the
sergeant’s commands. He watched them
make their hurried dash to the choppers, proud of each of them. Nothing was more important to
Percell was the
last of the team to run for the LZ, and he had just passed by Zeke’s position,
dodging a low hanging branch as he ran.
Zeke did a quick perimeter sweep, assuring himself that none of his boys
were still engaged in the battle.
Satisfied, he glanced over at Goldman.
“LT!” he called out again.
“Go! I got the rear!”
Lieutenant
Goldman found himself alternating between irritation and amusement over his
sergeant’s ‘orders.’ It came as no
surprise. Zeke Anderson always had the rear. He believed it was his soul duty in life to
be the last one to load up in order to ensure that no one else was left
behind. It was simply his way of doing
things, and Goldman understood that, had seen it countless times in action. Because of that, he could usually let it
slide, even if Zeke seemed to be crossing the line by telling his Commanding Officer
to go. Today, however, he had no
intention of leaving the sergeant out here alone. For some reason, today, of all days, he felt
a need to make sure they went back together.
Getting his
sergeant to agree to that was another matter entirely.
He raised
himself to his feet, still crouching, noticing the muzzle flashes behind and to
the left of
“I heard that,”
Zeke muttered, waiting a half second longer before rolling and pushing his body
off the ground to make a run for the chopper.
He felt a burning in his shoulder as he lifted up and knew that his
resistant muscles would be protesting tonight.
Sometimes, getting old sucked.
Goldman hung
back just enough to make sure he could hear Zeke was right behind him, and then
he put more effort into his retreat. He
could see Percell and Taylor as they provided cover fire from inside the slick. Running hunched over, he made it to the chopper
and grabbed the extended hand of the gunner who pulled him aboard. He turned immediately to watch Zeke’s
progress, calling out his encouragement to his sergeant. “Move it,
Zeke climbed on
board the chopper directly into the spot that had just been vacated by
The sergeant
felt himself relax as the bird found a safe place in the air and began its
journey back to base. There was no way
to describe the feeling he got at times like these, knowing they’d beaten the
odds once again. He prayed to God that
there wouldn’t come a time when it would be otherwise, but he knew better than
to believe that. He pulled his legs
further inside the slick and leaned back against the padded wall to survey his
men, each of them safe and bound for base.
Looked like it was a good day after all.
Goldman closed
his eyes for a moment as the chopper flew through the air, grateful for the
wind he could feel streaming past his face.
He had always liked that feeling, even as a boy. During summers when the General wasn’t home,
his mother would allow him to roll down the car window as far as it went and
lean out ‘just a bit.’ He’d close his
eyes and feel the wind as it rushed passed him, blowing through his short hair,
and imagine he was flying. Now, flying
here in ‘
He looked
intently at the weary faces of his team, settling briefly on each one. It was funny—they didn’t look so much like
boys any more. There was an edge on
their faces, a glint in their eye, a hardness about them. It didn’t take much to realize they’d grown
up in a heartbeat. For that matter, so
had he. In
They were a
quiet bunch right now, and he found that surprising given the success of their
search and destroy mission. The
unexpected little surprise of finding the VC had left several men guarding the
stolen weapons cache hadn’t changed the outcome, it had merely given him the
excuse to call in for a rapid evac, resulting in the Team Viking’s returning to
the base ahead of schedule. After
thirteen days in the bush, that thought alone should be making the guys a
little more animated. He decided to
remind them of that fact.
“Hey,” he called
out, making himself heard over the sound of the chopper’s rotors doing their
dance in the sky. All eyes immediately
turned to him with that simple command.
“You guys did
good out there. Hell, you did great,” he
reiterated, pausing a moment to look each man in the eye. “I’m proud of you.”
The words sank
in, the men unwilling to say anything.
Praise from their lieutenant wasn’t unheard of; it just wasn’t usually
put into words. Each man knew they had
their lieutenant’s approval, and each man gave the lieutenant fierce loyalty in
exchange. He was their
lieutenant. God help the man who tried
to change that.
“In fact,”
Goldman continued, allowing a small gleam to brighten his normally dark eyes,
“You guys did so well, we’re heading back two days ahead of schedule. Hot showers and hot food tonight.”
This brought the
expected round of cheers from the tired soldiers surrounding him.
“Hey, LT,”
“Yeah,
LT, how ‘bout it?”
Danny echoed with a smirk on his face.
Goldman held up
his hand. “Hold on, guys. You know better. There’s no way I can get you all passes into
He listened as
the cheers turned into a chorus of groans of disappointment, and held his hand
up slightly higher. “But….” he offered,
“I’ll see what I can do for tomorrow night.”
Marcus rubbed
his hands together in glee. “Way to go,
LT!” he said. “’Cuz
I am definitely in need of some fine female
attention.”
“Since when does
a female have to be fine for you, Taylor?” Ruiz piped up. “Hell, you’ll take anything in a skirt,”
“Good point, Ru, good point,”
Percell groaned
and shoved
“Yeah, in the
head maybe,” Johnson joined in.
Goldman sat back
a little further against the pilot’s seat and watched, pleased to see his words
had had the desired effect, and the men were beginning to let loose. He gazed across the body of the chopper to
where
“Hey, wait!”
Ruiz suddenly commented, excitement obvious in his voice. “LT, you said we’re getting back early. What’s the date, man? Anybody know today’s date?”
Silence greeted
him for a moment as the men attempted to remember what day it was—they all
seemed to blend together out in the bush.
“Friday.
The 27th,” Zeke stated quietly from where he sat.
“It is? You sure?” Alberto
asked, not pausing for an answer.
“That’s excellent, man!”
“What, you got a
hot date, or something, Ru?”
“No,
nothing like that. It’s my sister’s birthday, that’s all. I didn’t think I was gonna get to call her,
but now… Man, she woulda
been ripped if I didn’t remember her birthday,” Ruiz declared.
“Why’s that?”
Doc Hock asked. “Don’t
she know your time ain’t your own when you’re in-country?”
“Yeah, she
knows, Doc, she knows. But birthdays are
huge in my family. It’s like this
all day celebration. Starts out at
breakfast with just my family, and by the end of the day, there must be, like,
a hundred relatives hanging around. We
have this huge feast, food enough to feed a whole platoon. When we were little kids, we always did a
piñata. Now, there’s lots of dancing and
stuff. And the birthday kid gets a ton
of gifts. It’s like—the best day of the
whole damn year.” Ruiz’s words tumbled
over each other in his excitement as he began to remember his own birthdays in
years past. It wasn’t long before the
other members of Team Viking began to recall their birthdays, and each sought
to share those memories with the ‘family’ that was now around them.
“We didn’t have
a lot of family,”
“At my house,”
Percell cut in, “the party started the minute you woke up. My parents came in and sang ‘Happy Birthday’
just to get me out of bed. Worked every
time, ‘cuz I’d be so excited about the day. At breakfast there was a present waiting for
me at my place. But the best part of havin’ a birthday was that ya didn’t havta
do any chores for the whole damn day.”
“Yeah,
Danny, me too, me too!”
Johnson said, the smile growing on his face.
“For the whole day, nothin’ to do but relax. Now, that was special.”
“Yeah.
It was great if it was my birthday, but not so hot when it was my
sister’s…double the work then,” Percell remembered.
“Right on, man,”
Johnson laughed. “I heard that!”
“Hey,
Johnson—what was the best birthday gift you ever got?” Ruiz asked curiously.
Johnson thought
a minute, and then answered with certainty, “My grandfather’s Bible. My grandmother gave it to me on my birthday
the year after he died. He always had
that Bible with him; it was filled with all sorts of notes he’d written—reading
through it was like spending time with my grandpa again.”
The group fell
silent a moment, with only the constant whirring of the blades to mark the
passage of time.
Johnson,
realizing he’d dampened the mood, sought to repair the damage. “How about you, Ruiz? What was your best gift?” he asked.
“Aw, man, that’s
an easy one,” Ruiz stated, closing his eyes in memory. “A 1960 Chevy Impala. My uncle, he worked for this junkyard. This car came in one day, and I swear, it was
nothing but a heap of scrap. But he gave
it to me anyway, and the two of us, we spent hours fixing it up. Now her motor purrs like a kitten—she’s
waitin’ for me when I catch the freedom bird.”
Ruiz felt the
heat creeping up the back of his neck at the other man’s laughter. “You’re such an idiot, Taylor,” he said. He shoved
“What about you,
Danny?” Doc Hock prodded, hoping to continue the conversation. “What was the best birthday gift you ever
got?”
Danny smiled an
easy, relaxed grin, and removed the toothpick he’d been chewing on from his
lips. “The year I turned 13, my father
got me a filly.”
Percell let out
a deep belly laugh at that, taking more than a minute to answer his envious hootchmate. “No,
Taylor, no,” he replied, chuckling. “I
said a filly! A horse,
Taylor shook his
head. “Damn, Percell, you disappoint
me. Your best gift was a horse? What kind of a guy gets off on that?” he
asked.
“Don’t knock it
‘til you tried it, buddy,” Danny assured him.
“Yeah, well, I
still think you’d have been better off with a chick,” Taylor grumbled. He looked over at the still silent Anderson,
catching his eye, and was about to ask him about his best gift when Anderson
spoke up, cutting him off.
“Alright,
ladies—base is in view. Y’all gather up
your gear and head for the showers, ‘cuz you are the
sorriest lookin’ lot of soldiers I’ve ever seen. But ya done good,”
he added with his lopsided grin.
The chopper
cleared the treetops and flew toward the helipad, hovering briefly before
lowering its awkward body to the ground, the skids settling down just shy of
the recently painted peace symbol.
Zeke sat on his
rack in his hootch, methodically cleaning his M-16
with an old toothbrush. His hair was
still damp from the recent shower, and being in a clean pair of fatigues and
dry socks brought him contentment. A man
of simple tastes, it didn’t take much to make him happy. As he cleaned, he allowed his mind to follow
the paths brought up by the team’s conversation in the chopper.
He’d never paid
too much attention to birthdays. In his
mind, a birthday was just a day marking another year gone by. Lately all they’d done was remind him he was
getting older, and that he was getting older alone. In fact, he’d been doing his best to ignore
them all together. The last two had been
easy enough to disregard—he’d been out in the bush, and naturally, he had other
things on his mind. He’d been half
hoping that would be the case this year too, but his luck had run out
there. Getting back to base two days
early left him with nearly 8 hours left of birthday and no way to spend it.
Not all his
birthdays had been bad. There’d been
that year when he was first married, and Carol had gone all out to make it
special for him. He’d come home to a
candlelight dinner and a homemade cake, and she treated him like a king for the
rest of the night. One of the best
birthdays he’d had—the thought of it still brought a smile to his face.
And there’d been
another special birthday—the year he’d turned 11. He could remember it like yesterday. Judd had shown up that day, convinced the
nuns that it wouldn’t do any harm to let the boy play hooky with him. Judd could sweet-talk a nun out of damn near
anything. He’d taken young Ezekial to
his very first baseball game. (It was
always ‘Ezekial’ when the nuns were around, but Judd would call him ‘Zeke’ when
they were alone. Made him
feel special—Judd was always good at that.)
It didn’t matter to Zeke that it wasn’t the major leagues; the hot dogs
were still the best he’d ever tasted, and that day, the best birthday he’d ever
had.
Apart from that,
he’d never really celebrated a birthday.
He just figured birthdays were one more thing that orphans didn’t have.
A knock on the
door of his hootch interrupted his musings. This was no doubt a good thing, as he was
well on his way to a fine case of the birthday blues. “C’mon in,” he called out, not much caring
whom it might be. He’d welcome company
of any kind at this point.
Lieutenant
Goldman entered the hootch, using his backside to
keep the door from slamming behind him.
He pulled the hat off his head and crossed the room to where Zeke sat,
lightly rapping the cap against his sergeant’s soldier. “Hey,” he said in greeting, allowing a rare
smile to cross his features.
“Howdy, LT,”
Zeke responded in genuine pleasure.
“What’s up?”
Goldman walked
over to where he knew Zeke kept his beer and helped himself to a bottle without
asking. “Nothing much. I got a ton of paperwork, including the
After-Action Report, and I can’t face the thought of any of it. On top of that, they’re serving mystery meat
over at the mess hall. Wasn’t much point
in rushing back for that. Besides, whatever it is, I’m pretty sure it
isn’t kosher.” He raised the bottle to
his lips and took a swig before smiling, striving to sound casual. “I was gonna head into town for some dinner,
and I was hoping you might want to come along.”
Zeke’s
ever-present twinkle deepened in his gaze.
“Why, LT, I’m flattered,” he said, winking. “But I thought ya couldn’t be gettin’ passes into
“Yeah, well,
maybe not for the whole team. And I have
no doubt they’ll be pissed when they find out tomorrow. But we’re not really going into
“Where’s that?”
Zeke asked. He began putting his weapon
back together, reassembling the pieces without conscious thought.
“A little
restaurant McKay told me about—the Beaucoup Blues Bar. He said they even have a little blues band
there on weekends.”
“Vietnamese
blues, huh? Well, that surely sounds
like something I need to see for myself,” Zeke said, grinning. The thought of spending the evening in the
company of his lieutenant certainly outweighed the option of sitting here
feeling sorry for himself. “You got yourself a date.”
“Good,” Myron
said, pleased as well. “I’ll head on
over and get us a jeep. Why don’t you
meet me at the motor pool in about 15 mics?”
“No need for
that, LT. I’m ‘bout done here—I’ll walk
on over with ya now.” With that, he
shrugged into his cleanest fatigue shirt and accompanied the lieutenant out the
door.
The two men
found themselves seated at a quiet little table several hours, their dinners
having been eaten, the food a pleasant surprise. One never quite knew what to expect in an
untried restaurant, but they both agreed they owed McKay for the tip on this
one.
Myron was
working on his third beer while Zeke nursed his second. He was enjoying the atmosphere of this place,
and found the entire evening strangely reminiscent of their recent outing in Tay Nihn when they had escorted Digby to Long Bihn. Or not escorted him, as it ended up. The band played softly in the background,
doing a fairly good rendition of a song by Muddy Waters. Zeke raised his bottle to his lips as he
watched a young Vietnamese musician pull out his harmonica and start to play.
Myron heard the
sound, and shifted his chair slightly to get a better view. He turned back to see Zeke watching the young
man, a distant look in his eyes, and decided to plunge in with a subject he’d
thought about often lately.
“He’s almost as
good as Horn, isn’t he?” Myron asked quietly, watching Zeke, waiting to see his
reaction.
Zeke never took
his gaze from the musician, simply nodded thoughtfully. “Almost,” he replied. “But I ain’t never heard anybody play the way
that boy could. Aw, man, he made the
sweetest music…”
Myron paused,
hearing the wistfulness in Zeke’s voice, knowing it was combined with something
else. Sorrow, more
than likely. He lowered his
bottle to the table, keeping his hand wrapped loosely around it. “Why’d you stop playing,
Zeke? Was it because of Horn,
because of what happened?”
This drew Zeke’s
gaze from the band to face the deep brown eyes of his friend. He saw the question there, and the concern
that accompanied it. He had stopped
playing once Horn went home. But he
didn’t think anybody had noticed.
“I reckon,” he
answered finally. “I couldn’t bring
myself to play anymore once we sent that boy home the way we did. It was my fault he went back up the hill to
begin with. He never shoulda
been there. Once he left, it just seemed
to make sense to stop playing. I even
threw the damn thing away. To be real
honest with ya, LT, sometimes I regret doing that. Every now and then, I wish I could pull it
out and play. If nothing else, it sure
was fun annoying the hell out of everybody with it,” he grinned.
Myron looked up
at Zeke’s face with intensity blazing in his deep brown eyes. “You can’t blame yourself for what happened
to Horn, Zeke,” he replied. “Not for
Horn, or any of the other kids we’ve sent home the same way. Horn didn’t go back up the hill for you; he
did it because it was his duty. And because his buddies were counting on him. He came through for them that day, and I have
to believe that’s done more to bring him peace than staying down that damn hill
would have.”
Zeke considered
his lieutenant’s words for a long time, the silence settling around them in
much the same was as the cigarette smoke hung in the hazy air. “I reckon you might be right,” he finally
agreed.
“Don’t let it
eat at you any more, alright?” Myron cajoled.
“Neither one of us can afford to shoulder the blame every time one of
our guys gets hurt. You taught me that,”
he reminded him.
“Yessir. There’s truth to that. Guess sometimes I need to be reminded my own
self,” Zeke replied.
They were silent
for several minutes, a comfortable silence shared between old friends. Myron motioned to the waitress to bring
another round of beers, and when she returned, her tray also contained two
pieces of pie, one with a single candle burning in it. Setting this up unnoticed had not been easy,
but Myron knew when he saw the look of surprise on his sergeant’s face that it
had been worth it.
“Happy birthday,
Zeke,” he said simply.
Zeke stared at
his lieutenant, suddenly finding himself at a loss for words. “LT, I…I don’t know what to say,” he offered
feebly, feeling awkward. “How’d you know
it was my birthday?”
Myron let out a
laugh. “I am your CO, Zeke,” he
said. “I have access to your file,
remember?”
Zeke shook his
head, grinning. He could feel himself
blushing. “I just…well, I never thought
much about it. Didn’t figure nobody
would care, is all. Birthdays ain’t never been much for me,” he offered by way of
explanation.
“Yeah, I figured
as much. And I’m not trying to embarrass
you or anything, but you’re a good friend, and I thought this would be the
right time to make sure you realize that.
You’ve been there for me in more ways than I can count, over and
over. You’re a damn good soldier, a damn
good sergeant. I lucked out the day I
met you, even if I was a little slow to realize it.” He smiled at the memory of the rather
difficult start to their friendship. “I
don’t think I would have made it through these past couple of months
especially, if you hadn’t been there to watch my back…” he left that thought
unfinished, knowing Zeke would know what he referred to.
“At any rate, I
just wanted to let you know that in my world, I have good cause to celebrate
the day Zeke Anderson was born.”
Zeke averted his
gaze, feigning sudden interest in the bottle he held in his hands, his cheeks
beginning to feel as if they were on fire.
He was not at all comfortable being the center of attention, and the
words from his friend were high praise indeed, especially considering the
source. He was thankful that he had at
least two beers in him by now, or he probably would have beaten a path to the
door in seconds. He slowly raised his
eyes to meet the young lieutenant’s, wondering how much of this was the alcohol
talking.
Myron held his
gaze steady, his own embarrassment obvious in his face, but for once, he didn’t
regret his words. It wasn’t really much
of a price to pay if it helped his sergeant to realize he was special indeed.
“Damn, LT,” Zeke
said, the words coming out strangled.
Myron laughed
again, breaking the uncomfortable silence.
“Relax, Zeke. I’m done, I
promise. You can breath
again.”
Zeke let himself
laugh along with him, feeling the tension in the air diminish. “Good thing, LT. ‘Cuz if you
got any sappier, I’d be worried for your sanity.”
“Yeah, well,
birthdays are a reason to get sappy,” Myron said, raising his bottle in a
silent toast. “I guess I took a chance
here tonight, Zeke, by keeping this celebration between the two of us. I wasn’t sure if you’d rather have all the
guys in on it, but I figured you’d probably prefer something simple. I should warn you though, that McKay probably
let the cat out of the bag. I wouldn’t
be surprised if the guys ambush you when we get back to base.”
Zeke groaned
good-naturedly. “’In for a penny, in for
a pound,’ isn’t that what they say, LT?
I reckon with all the birthdays I’ve managed to ignore over the years, I
got no cause to complain about dealin’ with it
now.” He allowed his gaze to capture the
lieutenant’s. “I do appreciate the fuss
you’ve gone to tonight. It means a lot…”
Myron reached
into his pocket and pulled out a small box, carefully wrapped in old
newspaper. “Yeah, well, there’s more…I
got you something,” he said awkwardly, placing it on the table and pushing it
toward his sergeant. “I wasn’t sure if I
should, but…well, just go on and open it.”
If anything,
Zeke’s blush deepened ‘til his ears were bright pink. Celebrating birthdays seemed to be a mixed
blessing, but he was sure he could weather the storm for a bit longer.
“LT, you
shouldn’t have…” he said as he began opening it, his excitement with the gift
obvious.
“Yeah, well, you
might be saying that and meaning it one you see what it is,” Myron stated dryly.
Zeke lifted the
lid off the box to reveal a shiny new harmonica lying inside. He picked it up carefully, as if he were
afraid it would break, and turned it over gently in his large hand.
“LT, I…” he
swallowed, unable to formulate a single coherent thought. “I…”
“I hope you
don’t mind,” Myron began hurriedly. “I
know it was a long shot, but I hated the thought that you gave it up. Just didn’t seem right. But if you’re really not interested anymore,
don’t feel like you have to play it, okay?
I won’t be offended, honest.”
Zeke looked up
from the instrument he now cradled in his hand.
“How the hell did you manage to find one of these
in-country?” he asked, still in shock.
“I didn’t,”
Goldman answered. “I…well,
I sort of wrote to Horn and told him what I wanted to do. He picked one out for you and sent it to
me. He also gave me this.” Myron reached into his pocket and pulled out
a sealed envelope with Zeke’s name on the front. Handing it to his sergeant, he added, “He’s
doing real well, Zeke. He’s all healed
up and back in school. He wanted to make
sure you didn’t give up playing. Made me promise to tell you that.”
Zeke took the
offered envelope and fingered it. “You
wrote to Horn for this?” he asked, incredibly touched by the thoughtfulness of
such a gift. “Damn.” He shoved the envelope into his pocket,
looking forward to reading it later.
He closed his
hand around the harmonica, clutching it.
“LT,” he started, trying to put his thoughts into words, “ya know what
the guys were sayin’ before on the chopper, about
their best gift?” He hesitated before
continuing. “Well, this is mine. I thank you for it.” He looked the other man in the eye, his
gratitude showing clearly, and slipped the harmonica into his shirt
pocket. He found the weight of it there
comforting.
“Well, I’m glad you
like it,” Myron said, allowing his pleasure to show. “Because I have a feeling the rest of the
team may kill me when they find out.”
Zeke chuckled,
grateful for the lieutenant’s attempt to lighten the mood. “Yep, I reckon they might at that,” he
agreed.
They finished
their beers along with the dessert, and Zeke waited while Myron settled the
bill. Walking together back to the jeep,
Myron climbed behind the wheel. “Try not
to get upset if the guys ambush you with birthday cheer when we get back,” he
warned. “I’ll stick around and cover
your six.”
“I’d appreciate
it, LT. Nobody else I’d rather have
doing that,” he mused.
As they rode
back to the base in comfortable silence, Zeke looked up to see the stars
overhead and felt reassured by their presence.
He rubbed absently at the ache in his shoulder, reminded again of the
passage of time. He’d never given much
thought to his place in this world, though he’d wondered on occasion why he was
here. Looking at the young man seated
beside him, he was suddenly glad he was.
If nothing else, he could find meaning in this friendship he
shared.
It was a hell of
a way to beat the birthday blues.
~End~